Content.
The first step towards my ambitions have began. I have completed the official basketball coaching course and has been told that i have pass the theory and the practical. I swear the paper is tough. When i had finish my paper, my coach is still stuck at the frist page. So i am glad that i manage to go through it.
A little too much to expect but i hope one day i can be a coach in theNCAA basketball, be it the first asia coach or the first Singaporean to reach there.
Chris told me before that it is not advisable to put tag-box in blogs. At that moment i wonder why? Now i know. Only losers vocie in tag-box because they do not know anything about the situation and comments like they know it all. Fark it losers .
Good friday coming? Nah, Chris say it doesnt really concern me because i am spending every week, every day a good monday, good tuesday, good wednesday, good thursday, good friday, good saturday and a good sunday. wahaha. sounds true. Have been slacking to the max.
All right done up today's entry. Go watch the new jackie chan movie. It is good..
Friday, April 3, 2009
American Idol
Peaceful..
i think i am in good control of myself and i am proud of myself. my good friend recently face some problems so he took medical leave to recuprate his mental damage. I suppose my another friend is also decieved by the word crush from the singer David Archuleta. We are all young and due to the speed of internet, we want things to be fast, and usually haste will make things fall ugly.
How many of us learn from past expeience or i should say YOUR history. there is a joke from a student,
Teacher: History is a very interesting subject. It tells you about what had happened in the past.
Student: Please teacher, I don't think I want to study history.
Teacher: Why?Student: There is no future in it.
So usually we will do what we think is right and hopefully avoid what is wrong from the past. but many will let history repeat itself. Just like me entering into a relationship without thinking much. i am just like any other kids today wanting things to happen fast. but in the end i spoilt somebody good days.
so it comes back to my this good friend whom he deem as a failure in this particular girl. i question him whether is this a crush or do you really like her? what the crush die down in no more then months, are there future in it? definately what i mean here is able to be together and do many things together and develop into love and responsibility. it really worth considering. but there are tons of successful stories backing that many still eventually get marry and live till old ripe age.
i always feel it takes courage to ask a girl out, to ask for her hand, or to even ask, how r u doing? Especially to those you know she is the one that let your heart skip a bit faster when you talk to her. for friends only category, this is not a problem. you dun even need courage, you just need a phone. Even though she doesnt know you like her, it will still takes a certain degree of courage to do so. But things get more intense when she knew you like her and the frequency of you and her going out decrease to a all time low.
So this is a song from David Archuleta, the americian idol. - Crush.
I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside It was a rush, what a rush
Cause the possibility that you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much
Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know
Do you ever think When you're all alone
All that we can be Where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch a breath When I look at you
Are you holding back Like the way I do
Cause I'm tryin, tryin to walk away But I know this crush aint goin away
Has it ever cross your mind When were hangin, spending time girl,
Are we just friends Is there more, is there more
See it's a chance we've gotta take Cause I believe that we can make this into
Something that will last, last forever, forever
Ended.
So i question my friend, let us name him Chris. This song is what i told him. can the girl or him make it something that it will last?
Enough of my friends. now is my turn. and i know i am in this situation, this crush situation. it is not a bad thing, neither it is good. and the target i am refering to definetely know this is meant for her because i just told her in msn. Going back to the song, it really makes me feel hypnotized, think about her, protective about her and a rush. and i would like to ask her has it ever cross her mind, when were hangin, spending time girl together, are we just friends or is there more? we can talk all around the world and non-stop and the feeling is great, but, Am I crazy or falling in love, Is it real or just another crush?
So now, i dont need any answer from anyone. Neither do i wish this friend of my shrink a distance away from me. We had fun and i hope it continues becoz we talk like no tommorrow. i could have jolly well confess to her and pile lots of shit on myself in many chances but i choose to take a back seat and view the whole thing to avoid another mistake. i dont need it to last forever, just good enough for all of us to be happy. Please dont tell me it is impossilbe because nothing is impossible since obama became the president of USA. the current situation is great. nobody wants changes. but only changes will lead to more success. this theory is from the book who move my cheese.
And hopefully when the time comes, we both get a chance at one another.
i think i am in good control of myself and i am proud of myself. my good friend recently face some problems so he took medical leave to recuprate his mental damage. I suppose my another friend is also decieved by the word crush from the singer David Archuleta. We are all young and due to the speed of internet, we want things to be fast, and usually haste will make things fall ugly.
How many of us learn from past expeience or i should say YOUR history. there is a joke from a student,
Teacher: History is a very interesting subject. It tells you about what had happened in the past.
Student: Please teacher, I don't think I want to study history.
Teacher: Why?Student: There is no future in it.
So usually we will do what we think is right and hopefully avoid what is wrong from the past. but many will let history repeat itself. Just like me entering into a relationship without thinking much. i am just like any other kids today wanting things to happen fast. but in the end i spoilt somebody good days.
so it comes back to my this good friend whom he deem as a failure in this particular girl. i question him whether is this a crush or do you really like her? what the crush die down in no more then months, are there future in it? definately what i mean here is able to be together and do many things together and develop into love and responsibility. it really worth considering. but there are tons of successful stories backing that many still eventually get marry and live till old ripe age.
i always feel it takes courage to ask a girl out, to ask for her hand, or to even ask, how r u doing? Especially to those you know she is the one that let your heart skip a bit faster when you talk to her. for friends only category, this is not a problem. you dun even need courage, you just need a phone. Even though she doesnt know you like her, it will still takes a certain degree of courage to do so. But things get more intense when she knew you like her and the frequency of you and her going out decrease to a all time low.
So this is a song from David Archuleta, the americian idol. - Crush.
I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside It was a rush, what a rush
Cause the possibility that you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much
Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know
Do you ever think When you're all alone
All that we can be Where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch a breath When I look at you
Are you holding back Like the way I do
Cause I'm tryin, tryin to walk away But I know this crush aint goin away
Has it ever cross your mind When were hangin, spending time girl,
Are we just friends Is there more, is there more
See it's a chance we've gotta take Cause I believe that we can make this into
Something that will last, last forever, forever
Ended.
So i question my friend, let us name him Chris. This song is what i told him. can the girl or him make it something that it will last?
Enough of my friends. now is my turn. and i know i am in this situation, this crush situation. it is not a bad thing, neither it is good. and the target i am refering to definetely know this is meant for her because i just told her in msn. Going back to the song, it really makes me feel hypnotized, think about her, protective about her and a rush. and i would like to ask her has it ever cross her mind, when were hangin, spending time girl together, are we just friends or is there more? we can talk all around the world and non-stop and the feeling is great, but, Am I crazy or falling in love, Is it real or just another crush?
So now, i dont need any answer from anyone. Neither do i wish this friend of my shrink a distance away from me. We had fun and i hope it continues becoz we talk like no tommorrow. i could have jolly well confess to her and pile lots of shit on myself in many chances but i choose to take a back seat and view the whole thing to avoid another mistake. i dont need it to last forever, just good enough for all of us to be happy. Please dont tell me it is impossilbe because nothing is impossible since obama became the president of USA. the current situation is great. nobody wants changes. but only changes will lead to more success. this theory is from the book who move my cheese.
And hopefully when the time comes, we both get a chance at one another.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Basketball
satisfied.
What makes me so into coaching is because till today after 2 years, people still remember i was once a coach in a primary school, without a actual coaching cert and a young dude trying his success. But what makes me happy in coaching is when you recieve praise from all sorts of people and seeing your players performing in the court. Your own team craved by your own. You win some you lose some.
But even till now, my players still remember me as a coach and telling me they are getting into the school team and playing their next game at where and when. This feeling is so good and trust me, money cant buy such feelings. After the long torture of training from me in the past, they seems to remember the good times only and still perfroming now. I wish them all the best in their game and hopefully if i have the energy and time, i will visit their match.
so what sort of satisfaction do you get actually:
What makes me so into coaching is because till today after 2 years, people still remember i was once a coach in a primary school, without a actual coaching cert and a young dude trying his success. But what makes me happy in coaching is when you recieve praise from all sorts of people and seeing your players performing in the court. Your own team craved by your own. You win some you lose some.
But even till now, my players still remember me as a coach and telling me they are getting into the school team and playing their next game at where and when. This feeling is so good and trust me, money cant buy such feelings. After the long torture of training from me in the past, they seems to remember the good times only and still perfroming now. I wish them all the best in their game and hopefully if i have the energy and time, i will visit their match.
so what sort of satisfaction do you get actually:
- starting from the first day, people address you as Coach.
- teach the students the skills they have never even heard before and gradually see them improve when day pass
- they told you your training is fun!
- their attendance is more stable and they start pulling friends to join
- we can even have tea or coffee outside the school, just like friends and they no longer scare of me, but respect.
- players telling you that they have never won a game before and it was their first time winning games
- win big teams like always national team Pei chun and know them out of south zone
- older coaches acknowledge your success and ask you keep it up
- more digits in your bank account
- Having a team that never won a game in south zone before entering national once i am in charge
- tournament ended, players invite you back to the school to join their school events
- no longer a coach there, but players told me the new coach isnt doing a job
- New coach doesnt even win a game in the south zone tournament in the new season
- Players telling you they are entering the school team and playing this week at various venue and timing
This feeling can never be compare with anything. All efforts pays off. Big time. No regrets.
Friday, March 20, 2009
Back in Singapore
tired and happy? Perhaps.
Back in Singapore after the 4 days Macau trip going all around small island visiting one casino after another. From MGM Grand to Wlynn to Holiday INN to Venetien to Star World to Grand Lisboa and many other small casinos. It is more then just an eye opener which shows how competitive the market is in Macau. Each casino got mini bus to fetch customers to their casino and everything seems easy for you to place your bets.
However experiencing the grand casino from asia to european to america style, it all boils down to one same feeling. The feeling of the banker taking away your 13.5 grams 100 HKD chips but on the same time wanting to continue to win more. The super-duper mix emotions play around all night long. Thinking what is the next card might be is more stressful then drawing money from the ATM. The worried no income boy whom only got that thousand to win some pocket money back to singapore. But overall it is fun. Everyone should try it out someday.
Ah Jack told me it is a good time for holiday. A time to reflect on your life. Looks like i had a wasted trip because i didnt think much at all. in fact is nothing to think about because i know what i want. I Think.
It gets harder every day, but I can’t seem to shake the pain. I’m trying to find the words to say, please sayIt’s written all over my face, I can’t Function the same when you’re not here. I’m calling your name and no one’s there.
And I hope one day you’ll see nobody has it easy, I still can’t believe you found somebody new. But I wish you the best, I guess.
I'm just an ordinary man.
Back in Singapore after the 4 days Macau trip going all around small island visiting one casino after another. From MGM Grand to Wlynn to Holiday INN to Venetien to Star World to Grand Lisboa and many other small casinos. It is more then just an eye opener which shows how competitive the market is in Macau. Each casino got mini bus to fetch customers to their casino and everything seems easy for you to place your bets.
However experiencing the grand casino from asia to european to america style, it all boils down to one same feeling. The feeling of the banker taking away your 13.5 grams 100 HKD chips but on the same time wanting to continue to win more. The super-duper mix emotions play around all night long. Thinking what is the next card might be is more stressful then drawing money from the ATM. The worried no income boy whom only got that thousand to win some pocket money back to singapore. But overall it is fun. Everyone should try it out someday.
Ah Jack told me it is a good time for holiday. A time to reflect on your life. Looks like i had a wasted trip because i didnt think much at all. in fact is nothing to think about because i know what i want. I Think.
It gets harder every day, but I can’t seem to shake the pain. I’m trying to find the words to say, please sayIt’s written all over my face, I can’t Function the same when you’re not here. I’m calling your name and no one’s there.
And I hope one day you’ll see nobody has it easy, I still can’t believe you found somebody new. But I wish you the best, I guess.
I'm just an ordinary man.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
It all came back -- Homecoming
mixed feelings.
Fate brought us together years ago at a very unpredictable venue - KH house shuffling the tiles. soon it brought us apart to even as far as Thailand for i know. But yesterday, it brought us back together again, for only just 4 hours, and all the feelings and thoughts came back at once, just at my fingertips. Again, fate brings away everything along back to reality.
She is still the one i know when we first met. she is still as pretty as she is. people question about me and her, i would answered is all in the past. Only now i realise, it is all in the past when i am not with her. it all returned again when i saw her again. seems like i am having a hard time getting over her. i wonder this is becoming a fact.
it didnt surprise me to see her there but i was told i am fortunate because she no longer a frequent patron. indeed i felt happy once i saw her. we didnt talk as much as we use to. the greeney eyes of mine were well spotted by her when others approach. i rather choose to walk away. it is too difficult to smile again in front of the crowd. but soon, it resume what i wanted it all.
this is the same old ah boy and ah girl story. it was said that it will never to be changed. No one can prove words till actions are done. i choose to believe your current will be your future by living every relationship to the fullest. That's you. Chapter close, just any other story books.
I wish her happy always.. really.. and someone told me she will definately be happy always with my blessing. i hope so. i wish. bliss.
Fate brought us together years ago at a very unpredictable venue - KH house shuffling the tiles. soon it brought us apart to even as far as Thailand for i know. But yesterday, it brought us back together again, for only just 4 hours, and all the feelings and thoughts came back at once, just at my fingertips. Again, fate brings away everything along back to reality.
She is still the one i know when we first met. she is still as pretty as she is. people question about me and her, i would answered is all in the past. Only now i realise, it is all in the past when i am not with her. it all returned again when i saw her again. seems like i am having a hard time getting over her. i wonder this is becoming a fact.
it didnt surprise me to see her there but i was told i am fortunate because she no longer a frequent patron. indeed i felt happy once i saw her. we didnt talk as much as we use to. the greeney eyes of mine were well spotted by her when others approach. i rather choose to walk away. it is too difficult to smile again in front of the crowd. but soon, it resume what i wanted it all.
this is the same old ah boy and ah girl story. it was said that it will never to be changed. No one can prove words till actions are done. i choose to believe your current will be your future by living every relationship to the fullest. That's you. Chapter close, just any other story books.
I wish her happy always.. really.. and someone told me she will definately be happy always with my blessing. i hope so. i wish. bliss.
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Life.
moody..
Today is damn moody day. Even though things isnt as rough as it seems, but somedays are simply turn off. Suddenly, it relates me to think what is life all about. i find it rather interesting and see which of the following you have encountered before or heard before. see if you agree with me. all of the below scenerios are me myself experience it or heard from friends.
Basically life is playing around with...
Today is damn moody day. Even though things isnt as rough as it seems, but somedays are simply turn off. Suddenly, it relates me to think what is life all about. i find it rather interesting and see which of the following you have encountered before or heard before. see if you agree with me. all of the below scenerios are me myself experience it or heard from friends.
Basically life is playing around with...
1. taking advantage of others and vice versa
True huh? how many of you have been taking advantage of others and the next day someone will jolly take advantage of you? It happened in daily life but many of times, we are even happy to be taken advantage of. example is a coach is uitilising all his rights to ask his players to do things for him or whatsoever. many bball players will be more then happy ya? How many of your friends are close to you because they need you and not at other times when they do not need you? God damn many isnt it? today i heard from some coaches say that my coach often dump his PEOPLE aside when he is of no value to him or he doesnt need him anymore. I couldnt agree more. i am wondering if he has any idea that he is dealing with people? Chinese have a proverbs saying: 百年修来同船度 千年修来共枕棉. Go figure it out what it means.
That's life.
2. unexpected coming
Always expect the unexpected. Nice to say, easy to quote, difficult to proceed. How to expect the unexpected? even though we use to anticipate what is happening next, how many of times it will turn out to be? People always say if you fail to plan, you plan to fail. Even with sufficient planning, things might turn out shitty due to unexpected coming. Who can you blame but yourself?
That's life isnt it?
Aiya write until here i boring already. because too moody to continue. Maybe next time when i am in a better mood, i will write more colourful things. meanwhile some great songs to intro!!
- turnin me on - Keri hilson
- breath slow - Alesha Dixon
- Get back - Demi
- Let it rock - Kevin Rudolf feat. Lil' Wayne 2
Aiya many more.. Lazy to put. just mail me if you want any..
P.S. Peace of mind doesn't come from having less problems - it comes from being less critical!
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Identity diffusion
touched.
Slow life. this is what i am experiencing now after my exams. The nothing to do life attitude really makes me think whether such a life is good for health. No worries since exams are past. Everyday focus on my coaching course and go around Singapore watching inter-school tournaments and meet up friends to play mahjong, catch the latest movie in town are my daily plans.
the very nice Doris make everyone a card and i am the Mahjong king! Glad to be named that way but i thought i suppose to be the president of the mj club? haha. but indeed i am touched by her effort to write the letter even though some England of mine couldn't make it. haha. her last statement is a meaningful one, check this out:
P.S the girl of your life will come someday so wait PATIENTLY OK!
My reply is OK! becoz not much other choice ma. haha. so would you rather i sit back and WAIT PATIENTLY or be a little pro active to find one myself?? She saw edwin the other day and fell in love with him. OH wait, i twist the words. haha. further contents please find it out from me.
there are certain things in life cant change.
Slow life. this is what i am experiencing now after my exams. The nothing to do life attitude really makes me think whether such a life is good for health. No worries since exams are past. Everyday focus on my coaching course and go around Singapore watching inter-school tournaments and meet up friends to play mahjong, catch the latest movie in town are my daily plans.
the very nice Doris make everyone a card and i am the Mahjong king! Glad to be named that way but i thought i suppose to be the president of the mj club? haha. but indeed i am touched by her effort to write the letter even though some England of mine couldn't make it. haha. her last statement is a meaningful one, check this out:
P.S the girl of your life will come someday so wait PATIENTLY OK!
My reply is OK! becoz not much other choice ma. haha. so would you rather i sit back and WAIT PATIENTLY or be a little pro active to find one myself?? She saw edwin the other day and fell in love with him. OH wait, i twist the words. haha. further contents please find it out from me.
there are certain things in life cant change.
- Your family members
for this, god damn please believe me. No matter how much you hate your parents or siblings, this fact that they are your family members will not change forever. you will carry the surname of your dad for life. So please forgive them otherwise when you really want to do so, you might no longer have the chance, it will be sad. No parents will harm their kids. it always take more courage to forgive someone then to hurt them, especially your kins. - Your blood group
ahh, bullshit. If you are a o blooded human, you will be one forever. - Time
Time will be return back to what you missed out. Only movies like Click will illustrate the wonders to turning back time. Therefore do things that you wont regret in the future. Trust your instincts.
ok other then this 3 thingy, the rest all can change so please move along with time and make changes necessary to improve yourself. Be it cut your hair, trying to be daring by asking someone out or even say something in the person face, it will change your life drastically. Whether the change lead to a good or bad experience, it doesnt matter anyway becoz even though it's bad, you learnt.
Close the door on the past.
The past is only alive if you keep it alive. You cant change yesterday but you can build today for tomorrow. Dont shackle yourself with regrets. Dont start feeling sorry for yourself. Whatever your previous circumstances, others have gotten through the same or worse. Appreciate yourself as a tested survivor: strong and determined. Learn from the past but dont assume that your past automatically equals your future.
Instead, fill your life with anticipation. Set your goals. Write your to-dos. Just because you havent done something before doesnt mean that you cant start doing it right now. Be the new, dynamic you.
Right now.
The above statement are meant for my friends whom i know that are facing crisis.
Hope you have a chance to read it..
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