smoking!! WHy?

sleeepy.

today i went to melissa grandma's wake. it was a christian style of wake. no noisy gambling voice, no drums or monks read those scripts, just plenty pure peace. it is a little uncomfortable because i have never been to such a funeral before.

den when i was about to leave, i went the wrong way for the exit. resulted making turns and turns. previously mel say her dad wana watch over her becoz scare she smoke. haha. den the next moment, she is puffing away. now i duno why the 4.6 million singapore population smoke i dun give a damn. but she smokes = rather hurting. duno why. very strange, really.

i dont think she cares how i feel about it and ya, she shouldn't care also. perhpas it is the time we have been through when she wanted to quit and the symptoms keep coming back and she control it. quite difficult to forget. those were the days.

now glad to see her puff away with raven. at least she is happy. but that sight, irks me.

exams ended but doesnt seems much difference at all becoz i have been doing what i want to do like playing winning 11. haha. suppose to spend the time study yet went to play game. so when exam ended, like no difference. haha.

i am leaving vietnam in a few days time. classsmates were great wanting to see me off while i feel it is not needed and they were told not to come. haha. my dad say its too early to trouble people and i felt the same way. greatly appreciated. still wanna have a meal with me before i fly. haha. great but i am so so sorry i cant attend. so caught up with things.

frankly speaking, my mom will be greatly missed. my dad too and of course my sis. doris, edwin, wai ming, jackson, wei teck, firdauz. these group normally kill my boredom will be missed too.
however i m so damn looking forward to this trip. becoz.. i want to be alone and reflect and think.....

today happiness in a nutshell is...
' we all fail. but it is not failing that hurts. what hurts is knowing that you didnt give your best.'
sound so true...
so make sure everyone give your best kk..
all the best..