Bala

10/07/2008, tired.
today when i went for work, the first news is a bad one. paying docking time. it was last Friday someone denied payment resulted ben, celva, yusri, sunil,one girl and me have to foot the bill. it is 12 bucks. i dun mind paying but the thing is no one admit who took the wrong payment. maybe is me, maybe not. but anyway, good news flow in after that.

NYP called me said that i am selected for the Vietnam attachment trip to songbe resort. great!, it was what i wanted all along. so i called my mom, her respond was a sad one. it breaks my heart. perhaps i made a wrong move by signing up for it in the first place. hmm, hope she dont get too upset about it.. heaven was kind to me, really. it always give me what i wanted. hope this guardian angel will be with me always.

so it’s working time. frankly speaking, bala is a nice place to work. there are really nice people there. the Filipinos there doesnt seem to have temper at all. timothy is a kind soul together with ms siti and company. perhaps i am too quickly to judge. but at least they are kind in nature, i feel. i feel marvic helped me the most!! thank you.

heed this:people are often unreasonable, illogical and self centered.love them anyway.if you do good, people will accuse you of slefish ulterior motives.do good anyway.if you are successful, you will win false friends and true enemies.succeed anyway.the good you do today will be forgotten tomorrow.do good anyway.honesty and frankness make you vulnerable.be honest and frank anyway.what you spend years building may be destroyed overnight.build anyway.people really need help but may attack you if you help them.help people anyway.give the world the best you have and you’ll get kicked in the teeth.give the world the best you have anyway.

many are surprise that i create a blog. haha, in fact me too. because too many unspoken words needed to be spoken. so sean intro me to use this channel to say what i wanted to say. i dont mind if not a single soul view my blog. there isnt anything to flaunt or to tell. many feelings are suppose to be buried together with time.
‘lying makes a problem part of the future; truth makes a problem part of the past’ how great is this statement. i read it from a coach in nba named rick pitino. it makes think of my past. if i didnt know the truth, i am still in the dark till today. it is so unfair for those who lied and got scot-free. even if caught, there is nothing much the victim can do anyway. somehow there is no balance in this matter. the victim will always be the victim. the lier will always win his way.

i have everything i want to have. i have a great heart warming family. i have excellent buddy buddy friends. i have the great experience of coaching at this age which not many have did it. i have great teachers and mentor in my school and work. i have almost seems perfect part time job. i have got the oversea attachment that i wanted to have. i have the great electronics devices in today’s world. i have past relationship which can be good and bad.somehow, somehow, i feel empty inside. something is lacking, and it is lacking badly. i always wanted to spill this out but i realise no one can hear this. even i post this today, only this particular blog knows it.

but who can tell me what i am lacking to complete me..