Last post.
This will be my last post for this blog address. Simply because too many know this address and frankly speaking, i just need a venue to vent out my frustration without anyone knowledge, maybe except my good friends.
Like i say my post is not really meant to target at anyone because if there is anything i need to tell the person, i will say it in the face. so all those words are simply my opinion and my opinion are needless to let anyone know as it is meant for myself.
Anyway a diary is meant to be locked forever by yourself, isnt it?
Monday, April 13, 2009
updates
set.
All right, here's a little updates of my life. I think i caused a upset in Chris life by meeting me in Bugis and eat a Pasta mania and he headed home. I am Truely sorry for what i have done. Even though he say nvm but is still it isnt nice at all. Owe him a meal. haha.
Recently i have been playing mahjong. all day long. it is a great activity because it trains your mind to think hard and think smart. Of course luck involves in every gambling aspect and i dont denied it comes on and off. I heard several of my friends got their enlistment letter already. Haiz what has to come, has to come. No way to avoid it since i am a singaporean, even though not a die hard one. Tyron is sleeping in my room and he is cute and funny, and naughty. haha.
I have been picking up some part time jobs here and there to transfer my directions elsewhere. Everyone has different and i must learn to listen first before sharing my thoughts. So it is better to ask for opinions FIRST then to shoot what's in your mind, unless you are told to do so. Thats the reason god gives us 2 ear and 1 mouth. With the different length of my fingers on my hand, i also understand that each one have different strengths and weakness. haha. Sounds weird isnt it?
I wish my family members and my friends happy always..
All right, here's a little updates of my life. I think i caused a upset in Chris life by meeting me in Bugis and eat a Pasta mania and he headed home. I am Truely sorry for what i have done. Even though he say nvm but is still it isnt nice at all. Owe him a meal. haha.
Recently i have been playing mahjong. all day long. it is a great activity because it trains your mind to think hard and think smart. Of course luck involves in every gambling aspect and i dont denied it comes on and off. I heard several of my friends got their enlistment letter already. Haiz what has to come, has to come. No way to avoid it since i am a singaporean, even though not a die hard one. Tyron is sleeping in my room and he is cute and funny, and naughty. haha.
I have been picking up some part time jobs here and there to transfer my directions elsewhere. Everyone has different and i must learn to listen first before sharing my thoughts. So it is better to ask for opinions FIRST then to shoot what's in your mind, unless you are told to do so. Thats the reason god gives us 2 ear and 1 mouth. With the different length of my fingers on my hand, i also understand that each one have different strengths and weakness. haha. Sounds weird isnt it?
I wish my family members and my friends happy always..
Why?
Sad, to the max.
it was just about 1 am plus when i reach home yesterday and updating my blog. all was cool and calm. simply nothing happened. until i heard a bomb.. followed by a scream. Sometimes it happens in my area because those malays playing water bomb. so i didnt even bother to look down. for a split second i did though of looking down my window, but i did not.
Then this morning when i am browsing through my phone internet, my mom told me someone jumped off the building yesterday night. This is sad......
Even though i do not is a she or a he, why end the life short? haizzzz.....
it was just about 1 am plus when i reach home yesterday and updating my blog. all was cool and calm. simply nothing happened. until i heard a bomb.. followed by a scream. Sometimes it happens in my area because those malays playing water bomb. so i didnt even bother to look down. for a split second i did though of looking down my window, but i did not.
Then this morning when i am browsing through my phone internet, my mom told me someone jumped off the building yesterday night. This is sad......
Even though i do not is a she or a he, why end the life short? haizzzz.....
You cant make someone love you
moving on.
It's possible this is one of the hardest things to accept when it comes to matters of the heart. You find the person you've been looking for all your life. Trouble is, they dont seem to have realized it.
Maybe you met recently and you're head over heels, but they dont seem very keen. You're hanging on desperately, sure that they must soon realize you are made for each other ... Or maybe you've actually been together as a couple for years - they are very fond of you, after all, and being with you is easy - but deep down you know they dont really love you.
Sooner or, maybe, later they'll tell you that things just aren't working out, but you dont want to hear it. you try to persuade them to give you another chance. Maybe you try to change, to become the person they really want. It's all a bit humiliating really, but you dont see it like that. You think it's worth it to win their love.
Funny thing is though - it never works. Love just isnt like that. You can jump through any hoops you like, beat yourself up for not being able to match up their standard (as you see it), damage your confidence and your self- esteem in the process, and still they wont love you. They cant. Maybe they are gentle and apologetic about it, and maybe they are unkind or even brutal.
The same scenario is played out in relationship the world over - where only one of the 2 is actually in love. Think through some of the couples you know and i bet you can think of examples where this is true.
You see, however wonderful the object of your affections is, if they dont love you back the relationship will never be that good. Even supposing they could love you, if it requires you to keep jumping through all those hoops to hang on to them, it's just not worth it. You need and deserve someone who loves you for who you are, not for who you're pretending or trying to be. So as soon as you realize you're with someone who doesnt love you, you need to be really brave and end the relationship before they do. You will feel bad about losing them, but great for holding on to your pride, and one day you will look back and realize how courageous and right a decision it was.
It's possible this is one of the hardest things to accept when it comes to matters of the heart. You find the person you've been looking for all your life. Trouble is, they dont seem to have realized it.
Maybe you met recently and you're head over heels, but they dont seem very keen. You're hanging on desperately, sure that they must soon realize you are made for each other ... Or maybe you've actually been together as a couple for years - they are very fond of you, after all, and being with you is easy - but deep down you know they dont really love you.
Sooner or, maybe, later they'll tell you that things just aren't working out, but you dont want to hear it. you try to persuade them to give you another chance. Maybe you try to change, to become the person they really want. It's all a bit humiliating really, but you dont see it like that. You think it's worth it to win their love.
Funny thing is though - it never works. Love just isnt like that. You can jump through any hoops you like, beat yourself up for not being able to match up their standard (as you see it), damage your confidence and your self- esteem in the process, and still they wont love you. They cant. Maybe they are gentle and apologetic about it, and maybe they are unkind or even brutal.
The same scenario is played out in relationship the world over - where only one of the 2 is actually in love. Think through some of the couples you know and i bet you can think of examples where this is true.
You see, however wonderful the object of your affections is, if they dont love you back the relationship will never be that good. Even supposing they could love you, if it requires you to keep jumping through all those hoops to hang on to them, it's just not worth it. You need and deserve someone who loves you for who you are, not for who you're pretending or trying to be. So as soon as you realize you're with someone who doesnt love you, you need to be really brave and end the relationship before they do. You will feel bad about losing them, but great for holding on to your pride, and one day you will look back and realize how courageous and right a decision it was.
Saturday, April 11, 2009
A sense of Humour will last you long after everything else has gone
Enlighten.
Choose someone who makes you laugh
This is the First rule because it is the most important in all relationship. If you choose your partner for their looks, their status, or even the rest of their personality, you could regret it eventually. Anyway lots of those can get lost along the way. Even personality traits can change - a confident person can be shattered by an emotional trauma, a patient person can become irritable and frustrated through illness or pain.
But a sense of humour will last you long after everything else has gone. When you are both sitting there in you rocking chairs, decades after retirement and the kids have long since grown up, it maybe all you have left. And if it is, it will be enough.
Laughter is worth it's weight in gold. A sense of humour is a very personal thing, and some people just make us laugh more then others. When you find the person who really makes you laugh more than anyone else, marry them. Assuming they are the right sex. Your are guaranteed to fancy them, because anyone who makes you laugh will be hugely attractive, even if they are not physically what you had been anticipating.
So next time you meet someone with gorgeous legs, or sexy eyes, or a cute smile, don't be seduced straight away. See if they can tickle you without touching first. Just don't compromise on the sense of humour, because it really is the top priority.
Choose someone who makes you laugh
This is the First rule because it is the most important in all relationship. If you choose your partner for their looks, their status, or even the rest of their personality, you could regret it eventually. Anyway lots of those can get lost along the way. Even personality traits can change - a confident person can be shattered by an emotional trauma, a patient person can become irritable and frustrated through illness or pain.
But a sense of humour will last you long after everything else has gone. When you are both sitting there in you rocking chairs, decades after retirement and the kids have long since grown up, it maybe all you have left. And if it is, it will be enough.
Laughter is worth it's weight in gold. A sense of humour is a very personal thing, and some people just make us laugh more then others. When you find the person who really makes you laugh more than anyone else, marry them. Assuming they are the right sex. Your are guaranteed to fancy them, because anyone who makes you laugh will be hugely attractive, even if they are not physically what you had been anticipating.
So next time you meet someone with gorgeous legs, or sexy eyes, or a cute smile, don't be seduced straight away. See if they can tickle you without touching first. Just don't compromise on the sense of humour, because it really is the top priority.
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Whirlpool
Stalemate.
I tell you i m good. i dont need sleep. haha. I slept at 7 and woke up at 9. and i am damn awake. The very first thing i did is to hunt for my hp and go to 'always' the blog to see if there is any post. and got a post la with only one statement. And i promise myself this is the last sorrow thing about this shit and the rest will be buried, either i keep it to my very self or i will enter the chruch and speak to the statue there.
When there are little cards at your hands, there are little things you can do, especially small cards. This is the game of dai dee, correct? So i feeel i have little cards at my disposal till today because i realise i cannot do anything before sorting out what i want. And the lesson today is know what you want before doing anything to get what you want. If not you will reach the middle and fall off.
Everything change when their status change. Friends is like this. Together share all these laughter. But when together le minus away the laughter fill in with more sorrows and inject abit of the daily life quarrel and more problems raising up. I never know holding hands is nothing in today context.
I have a friend i am going to intro her to everyone. Let us name her... Teeth. huh teeth? yes teeth. haha. i knew her in a situation becoz she is my friend's friend. And teeth and i talk whenever she had problems with her boyfriend or upcoming boyfriend and vice versa. AND usually we will pour everything out is because i do not know her group of friends well and neither do her know my friends at all and we do not need to worry other of her friends know any of the secrets. All comments by us is genuine with no biased category in it and it is a straight forward de. No hiding no nothing. Just speak of the heart. and we usually talk from 10pm to 4 am and finish off with a 7-11 tour. So if possible, find one. Sometimes teeth comments is good because it is from a girls perspective.
If you are unclear of what you want, how can you expect people to fuifill what you want?
Everyone is someday must bow down to fate and admit defeat..
I like you, but i cant like you. It is hard to say when love is right in front of you. If you dont grab the chance, you will miss it. (scorpio1869)
I tell you i m good. i dont need sleep. haha. I slept at 7 and woke up at 9. and i am damn awake. The very first thing i did is to hunt for my hp and go to 'always' the blog to see if there is any post. and got a post la with only one statement. And i promise myself this is the last sorrow thing about this shit and the rest will be buried, either i keep it to my very self or i will enter the chruch and speak to the statue there.
When there are little cards at your hands, there are little things you can do, especially small cards. This is the game of dai dee, correct? So i feeel i have little cards at my disposal till today because i realise i cannot do anything before sorting out what i want. And the lesson today is know what you want before doing anything to get what you want. If not you will reach the middle and fall off.
Everything change when their status change. Friends is like this. Together share all these laughter. But when together le minus away the laughter fill in with more sorrows and inject abit of the daily life quarrel and more problems raising up. I never know holding hands is nothing in today context.
I have a friend i am going to intro her to everyone. Let us name her... Teeth. huh teeth? yes teeth. haha. i knew her in a situation becoz she is my friend's friend. And teeth and i talk whenever she had problems with her boyfriend or upcoming boyfriend and vice versa. AND usually we will pour everything out is because i do not know her group of friends well and neither do her know my friends at all and we do not need to worry other of her friends know any of the secrets. All comments by us is genuine with no biased category in it and it is a straight forward de. No hiding no nothing. Just speak of the heart. and we usually talk from 10pm to 4 am and finish off with a 7-11 tour. So if possible, find one. Sometimes teeth comments is good because it is from a girls perspective.
If you are unclear of what you want, how can you expect people to fuifill what you want?
Everyone is someday must bow down to fate and admit defeat..
I like you, but i cant like you. It is hard to say when love is right in front of you. If you dont grab the chance, you will miss it. (scorpio1869)
the twist and turn of life.
SAD.
Today is the best day to describe what is a sad day. Really. I told the world Liverpool need to be a underdog to win games, big games. And there it goes boom a home defeat by 3 goals to 1. Lucky i never watch the match if not i will smash the TV, i promise you.
And the irony is, if i place a bet on chelsea or/and a draw, I SWEAR LIVERPOOL IS GOING TO WIN THE MATCH. Just like you double down a bet in blackjack when you saw banker got a single card 5, and usually the banker will ended up in a total of 20 or 21 points. U never know the fate until it happens. Some people just like to depend on luck, play slots machine which is not in their control at all.Totally depend on luck. But some will only play blackjack, mahjong or bacarrat simply because they believe they can control the fate of the game by controlling the movement of the cards or his observation skills. But Fark it, Fate make silly people look more silly. When you think you have the control of the game, fate will throw it away for u. when you though you wanna let it ride your bet , they will snatch it back from you and throw it back into your face telling I HAVE JUST FOOLED YOU. That's life.
Just no less then 24 hours, my life change drastically. Since back from Macau, i have prepared for the worst. i know my life is not that smooth. so i told myself to get ready for the worst setback. even the worst casino banker will get blackjack once in a blue moon. i never seem to learn to appreciate things. at the least friendship. and i almost burst one of my friend relationship. but fortunately we still can talk and i m glad about it. i never learn from past experience and always making things in a haste. i m just like many youngster out there who cant take things slowly. i cant seems to match what my horoscope says: ' the most stable when problems starts. Best in handling problems becoz willing to take things slowly and looking at all angles.' or how a Tarus should STEADILY FUNCTION. I sucked in it man. Now i am wondering am i born in may. If only everything can be nvm nvm and live the whole life.
and frankly speaking, i dont need any comments from anyone, especially people telling me how to do or function to be a better person becoz all those words are bull shit. If you are that damn good, then save the comments to yourself. i will live by my principles and i hope everybody respect me how i respect everybody.
That's all for today. Tired as a person, Predict true about life but just duno when it will stirke. Usually at the time when u didnt want it to happen most.
Good night folks.
Today is the best day to describe what is a sad day. Really. I told the world Liverpool need to be a underdog to win games, big games. And there it goes boom a home defeat by 3 goals to 1. Lucky i never watch the match if not i will smash the TV, i promise you.
And the irony is, if i place a bet on chelsea or/and a draw, I SWEAR LIVERPOOL IS GOING TO WIN THE MATCH. Just like you double down a bet in blackjack when you saw banker got a single card 5, and usually the banker will ended up in a total of 20 or 21 points. U never know the fate until it happens. Some people just like to depend on luck, play slots machine which is not in their control at all.Totally depend on luck. But some will only play blackjack, mahjong or bacarrat simply because they believe they can control the fate of the game by controlling the movement of the cards or his observation skills. But Fark it, Fate make silly people look more silly. When you think you have the control of the game, fate will throw it away for u. when you though you wanna let it ride your bet , they will snatch it back from you and throw it back into your face telling I HAVE JUST FOOLED YOU. That's life.
Just no less then 24 hours, my life change drastically. Since back from Macau, i have prepared for the worst. i know my life is not that smooth. so i told myself to get ready for the worst setback. even the worst casino banker will get blackjack once in a blue moon. i never seem to learn to appreciate things. at the least friendship. and i almost burst one of my friend relationship. but fortunately we still can talk and i m glad about it. i never learn from past experience and always making things in a haste. i m just like many youngster out there who cant take things slowly. i cant seems to match what my horoscope says: ' the most stable when problems starts. Best in handling problems becoz willing to take things slowly and looking at all angles.' or how a Tarus should STEADILY FUNCTION. I sucked in it man. Now i am wondering am i born in may. If only everything can be nvm nvm and live the whole life.
and frankly speaking, i dont need any comments from anyone, especially people telling me how to do or function to be a better person becoz all those words are bull shit. If you are that damn good, then save the comments to yourself. i will live by my principles and i hope everybody respect me how i respect everybody.
That's all for today. Tired as a person, Predict true about life but just duno when it will stirke. Usually at the time when u didnt want it to happen most.
Good night folks.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Painting
Happy!
My family is going to paint the house! For the past 10 years that i have been living in this house, i have never though of smelling fresh paint over my room or the house. And here comes the controversy. My mom wanna hire the professionals to do the job but my Dad wants it to be done by our own hands! Coin will always have 2 sides, each with its pros and cons. HAHA. This ultimatum sent by my mom is a SERIOUS one. and no one dares to disagree. haha.
Ytd night is a good night. Not in terms of my sleep but the events that are happening. How much fun can 2 people have when they ended up in mustafa centre shopping aimlessly? but none the less, it was GREAT! haha. After that was my all time favourite, Mj and then Blackjack. Isnt this perfect life? It is. Only with the right people at the right time. And the small chat at the night... spending time with one another is always better facing device to get their msg sent. it always doesnt send the right msg. i still remember the funny look when you go home and didnt know how to reply to my question. and hurried off like an aeroplane. Haha. Maybe it is just more then a moment.
Liverpool tonigh face chelsea and i tell you i hate it. Not because our opponent is Chelsea(anyway we have beaten them at LEAST TWICE this season) but because they are the underdogs of the game. Usually Liverpool shine when they are the underdogs. But nvm, Just play and trust me, it is worth to stay awake for the game.
all right till now. Downloaded some power pack R&B. haha. Enjoy your day!
My family is going to paint the house! For the past 10 years that i have been living in this house, i have never though of smelling fresh paint over my room or the house. And here comes the controversy. My mom wanna hire the professionals to do the job but my Dad wants it to be done by our own hands! Coin will always have 2 sides, each with its pros and cons. HAHA. This ultimatum sent by my mom is a SERIOUS one. and no one dares to disagree. haha.
Ytd night is a good night. Not in terms of my sleep but the events that are happening. How much fun can 2 people have when they ended up in mustafa centre shopping aimlessly? but none the less, it was GREAT! haha. After that was my all time favourite, Mj and then Blackjack. Isnt this perfect life? It is. Only with the right people at the right time. And the small chat at the night... spending time with one another is always better facing device to get their msg sent. it always doesnt send the right msg. i still remember the funny look when you go home and didnt know how to reply to my question. and hurried off like an aeroplane. Haha. Maybe it is just more then a moment.
Liverpool tonigh face chelsea and i tell you i hate it. Not because our opponent is Chelsea(anyway we have beaten them at LEAST TWICE this season) but because they are the underdogs of the game. Usually Liverpool shine when they are the underdogs. But nvm, Just play and trust me, it is worth to stay awake for the game.
all right till now. Downloaded some power pack R&B. haha. Enjoy your day!
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Today is boring!
Bored.
as mention, today is a boring day. my sprint ankle makes the matter worst. i though i could shake the injury off during the game of basketball yesterday night but when i reach home, the sharp pain keeps coming back and i need no less then 6 medicine to counter the pain. Includes all traditional Zhen GU shui and many more. Finally it gets better this morning but the pain is THERE!
Some sports update in my blog! First is unity secondary enter the next round of National School competitions by beating maris stella high school. Ya i bet they wont lift the trophy again this season. haha. Cavs had a shocking defeat against Orlando? by a hugh margin? Simply unbelievable. HAHA. And tonight, Liverpool would love to continue the winning streak for the premier league trophy. Gee. DUn score too many la, by 2 can already. haha.
i was told my blog is too dry. No pictures. In other words it simply means boring, just like me. HAHa. so i found some funny pics from my e mail and i m going to share!
How are you going to spend this lots of money???? Man, the size of the total money can become my resting nest. haha. Hope i can get half of the pic there. Dont too greddy ah.. hahah
All right, that's all for now. 3 entries for these 2 days. nothing to do so finding something to do!
Friday, April 3, 2009
Good friday? NAh...
Content.
The first step towards my ambitions have began. I have completed the official basketball coaching course and has been told that i have pass the theory and the practical. I swear the paper is tough. When i had finish my paper, my coach is still stuck at the frist page. So i am glad that i manage to go through it.
A little too much to expect but i hope one day i can be a coach in theNCAA basketball, be it the first asia coach or the first Singaporean to reach there.
Chris told me before that it is not advisable to put tag-box in blogs. At that moment i wonder why? Now i know. Only losers vocie in tag-box because they do not know anything about the situation and comments like they know it all. Fark it losers .
Good friday coming? Nah, Chris say it doesnt really concern me because i am spending every week, every day a good monday, good tuesday, good wednesday, good thursday, good friday, good saturday and a good sunday. wahaha. sounds true. Have been slacking to the max.
All right done up today's entry. Go watch the new jackie chan movie. It is good..
The first step towards my ambitions have began. I have completed the official basketball coaching course and has been told that i have pass the theory and the practical. I swear the paper is tough. When i had finish my paper, my coach is still stuck at the frist page. So i am glad that i manage to go through it.
A little too much to expect but i hope one day i can be a coach in theNCAA basketball, be it the first asia coach or the first Singaporean to reach there.
Chris told me before that it is not advisable to put tag-box in blogs. At that moment i wonder why? Now i know. Only losers vocie in tag-box because they do not know anything about the situation and comments like they know it all. Fark it losers .
Good friday coming? Nah, Chris say it doesnt really concern me because i am spending every week, every day a good monday, good tuesday, good wednesday, good thursday, good friday, good saturday and a good sunday. wahaha. sounds true. Have been slacking to the max.
All right done up today's entry. Go watch the new jackie chan movie. It is good..
American Idol
Peaceful..
i think i am in good control of myself and i am proud of myself. my good friend recently face some problems so he took medical leave to recuprate his mental damage. I suppose my another friend is also decieved by the word crush from the singer David Archuleta. We are all young and due to the speed of internet, we want things to be fast, and usually haste will make things fall ugly.
How many of us learn from past expeience or i should say YOUR history. there is a joke from a student,
Teacher: History is a very interesting subject. It tells you about what had happened in the past.
Student: Please teacher, I don't think I want to study history.
Teacher: Why?Student: There is no future in it.
So usually we will do what we think is right and hopefully avoid what is wrong from the past. but many will let history repeat itself. Just like me entering into a relationship without thinking much. i am just like any other kids today wanting things to happen fast. but in the end i spoilt somebody good days.
so it comes back to my this good friend whom he deem as a failure in this particular girl. i question him whether is this a crush or do you really like her? what the crush die down in no more then months, are there future in it? definately what i mean here is able to be together and do many things together and develop into love and responsibility. it really worth considering. but there are tons of successful stories backing that many still eventually get marry and live till old ripe age.
i always feel it takes courage to ask a girl out, to ask for her hand, or to even ask, how r u doing? Especially to those you know she is the one that let your heart skip a bit faster when you talk to her. for friends only category, this is not a problem. you dun even need courage, you just need a phone. Even though she doesnt know you like her, it will still takes a certain degree of courage to do so. But things get more intense when she knew you like her and the frequency of you and her going out decrease to a all time low.
So this is a song from David Archuleta, the americian idol. - Crush.
I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside It was a rush, what a rush
Cause the possibility that you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much
Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know
Do you ever think When you're all alone
All that we can be Where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch a breath When I look at you
Are you holding back Like the way I do
Cause I'm tryin, tryin to walk away But I know this crush aint goin away
Has it ever cross your mind When were hangin, spending time girl,
Are we just friends Is there more, is there more
See it's a chance we've gotta take Cause I believe that we can make this into
Something that will last, last forever, forever
Ended.
So i question my friend, let us name him Chris. This song is what i told him. can the girl or him make it something that it will last?
Enough of my friends. now is my turn. and i know i am in this situation, this crush situation. it is not a bad thing, neither it is good. and the target i am refering to definetely know this is meant for her because i just told her in msn. Going back to the song, it really makes me feel hypnotized, think about her, protective about her and a rush. and i would like to ask her has it ever cross her mind, when were hangin, spending time girl together, are we just friends or is there more? we can talk all around the world and non-stop and the feeling is great, but, Am I crazy or falling in love, Is it real or just another crush?
So now, i dont need any answer from anyone. Neither do i wish this friend of my shrink a distance away from me. We had fun and i hope it continues becoz we talk like no tommorrow. i could have jolly well confess to her and pile lots of shit on myself in many chances but i choose to take a back seat and view the whole thing to avoid another mistake. i dont need it to last forever, just good enough for all of us to be happy. Please dont tell me it is impossilbe because nothing is impossible since obama became the president of USA. the current situation is great. nobody wants changes. but only changes will lead to more success. this theory is from the book who move my cheese.
And hopefully when the time comes, we both get a chance at one another.
i think i am in good control of myself and i am proud of myself. my good friend recently face some problems so he took medical leave to recuprate his mental damage. I suppose my another friend is also decieved by the word crush from the singer David Archuleta. We are all young and due to the speed of internet, we want things to be fast, and usually haste will make things fall ugly.
How many of us learn from past expeience or i should say YOUR history. there is a joke from a student,
Teacher: History is a very interesting subject. It tells you about what had happened in the past.
Student: Please teacher, I don't think I want to study history.
Teacher: Why?Student: There is no future in it.
So usually we will do what we think is right and hopefully avoid what is wrong from the past. but many will let history repeat itself. Just like me entering into a relationship without thinking much. i am just like any other kids today wanting things to happen fast. but in the end i spoilt somebody good days.
so it comes back to my this good friend whom he deem as a failure in this particular girl. i question him whether is this a crush or do you really like her? what the crush die down in no more then months, are there future in it? definately what i mean here is able to be together and do many things together and develop into love and responsibility. it really worth considering. but there are tons of successful stories backing that many still eventually get marry and live till old ripe age.
i always feel it takes courage to ask a girl out, to ask for her hand, or to even ask, how r u doing? Especially to those you know she is the one that let your heart skip a bit faster when you talk to her. for friends only category, this is not a problem. you dun even need courage, you just need a phone. Even though she doesnt know you like her, it will still takes a certain degree of courage to do so. But things get more intense when she knew you like her and the frequency of you and her going out decrease to a all time low.
So this is a song from David Archuleta, the americian idol. - Crush.
I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside It was a rush, what a rush
Cause the possibility that you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much
Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know
Do you ever think When you're all alone
All that we can be Where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch a breath When I look at you
Are you holding back Like the way I do
Cause I'm tryin, tryin to walk away But I know this crush aint goin away
Has it ever cross your mind When were hangin, spending time girl,
Are we just friends Is there more, is there more
See it's a chance we've gotta take Cause I believe that we can make this into
Something that will last, last forever, forever
Ended.
So i question my friend, let us name him Chris. This song is what i told him. can the girl or him make it something that it will last?
Enough of my friends. now is my turn. and i know i am in this situation, this crush situation. it is not a bad thing, neither it is good. and the target i am refering to definetely know this is meant for her because i just told her in msn. Going back to the song, it really makes me feel hypnotized, think about her, protective about her and a rush. and i would like to ask her has it ever cross her mind, when were hangin, spending time girl together, are we just friends or is there more? we can talk all around the world and non-stop and the feeling is great, but, Am I crazy or falling in love, Is it real or just another crush?
So now, i dont need any answer from anyone. Neither do i wish this friend of my shrink a distance away from me. We had fun and i hope it continues becoz we talk like no tommorrow. i could have jolly well confess to her and pile lots of shit on myself in many chances but i choose to take a back seat and view the whole thing to avoid another mistake. i dont need it to last forever, just good enough for all of us to be happy. Please dont tell me it is impossilbe because nothing is impossible since obama became the president of USA. the current situation is great. nobody wants changes. but only changes will lead to more success. this theory is from the book who move my cheese.
And hopefully when the time comes, we both get a chance at one another.
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